if only you were lonely

i missed hawthorne heights
haha

they bring back very good times
you know, as days go on, the school routine grows old, summer approaches, and i am growing, i realize so many things. like, that i really only need my friends, i mean yeah yeah sign blah blah, but who cares really. not like anyone my age is mature enough for a decent relationship anyways, not saying i am. who knows. but anyways, another thing, is that i really need to get independant, get a job, get my license, and enjoy my life more.

idk where i am going
but if you read this, and you think i am mad at you, or if you read this and you know we are in great terms, it doesnt matter.
just know
i love you all =]


life is too short you know?
so dont waste your time being sad, dont waste time being mad, and dont waste time away from the people that want you around.
these are the years you find out who you have for the rest of your life
so you have to cherish it and them

[M-M] for life

hmmm....

you confuse me so much as a friend, like, i love you to death. but sometimes i just dont know what the hell you are thinking. its just not right. and it sucks for me to see you so different. but i still love you and im not saying anything negative.


on a lighter note.
SYS = New songs coming
SIN = New songs coming ( ALOT because nick can just poop songs )
PF :O = hopefully writing, i have so many ideas, just need to know if people are still down


kk kk.
not like anyone will answer this BUT
question:
dont you just hate it when you KNOW that you can be better than you are, and you see yourself doing better than you are but you cant reach it?

yepp

on another note
one of my other friends i wanna put a little note for.
you have the potential, and i know you have it in you. you of all people can probably do anything you want with the effort and the confidence, but the confidence is what gets you. please, pick up your head. you know your better, we all know your better. its what you want to show everyone and its what everyone wants to see. and another note to you, you will be ok. i cant promise, but i know you will be. i love you as well.

haha. i can definately feel it. but i ignore it.

that is just TOO funny to me. i can tell deeeeeep down there are ropes tightening trying to put things back together. but nopeee. my piece is walking away. and i just find it funny. because deeep in YOUR brain towards the back. you dont even know whats happening, BUT. itll keep coming up. haha. this ONLY makes sense to me. =]


kk.
Follow up on my question for the couple of people that answered me.

question. those people you care about so much you CANT hate, tho you care so much about them, do you find them distant from you? or. do you find yourself trying to show them someone you arent, but someone you think they need to see?

today....

oh my gosh. i had a very crazy day today. i dont even know how to start it. but i learned one big thing. and it affected me alot. because it is something that will affect two people i really care about. see. everyone usually has a goal in life. like. they say "i cant wait til i get this and i can do this with these people" and its like. they drop everyone and everything just to obtain it basically. and AS they are working towards it they lose people. and it is just so sad. because they are left with no one.

i just think its a sad thought. to be at the top, the place youve always dreamed. and there is no one there with you. your alone. and you have all that you want. and no one to share it with.

well there is alot on my mind. a couple things.
one. im glad dick week is over...
two. i think i might be done for a while. but im not sure. haha



YOU.
i just cant really believe you. idk. i guess it wasnt a bad thing. but it kind of offended me.



question. (please answer if you can in anyway respond to me)
have you ever met someone, and you get to know them. and you care about them ALOT, but you just sometimes wish you hated them? because you CANT hate them? because you care so much? yeahhhh..... it sucks

how can you say this man has no passion?

i love escape the fate
and this video specifically

=]
goodnight

ehhhhhhh. your lame

i think im done with about 3 of you.
yeahhh. i am. i think YOU. are just stupid. i mean you dont know what you want at all and you just send mixed signals. YOU. you just dont really seem to want anything. you are like oblivious to life and dont know what anything is. YOU. there is nothing wrong with you. but i dont know. i kinda just know its done? but idk. i could be wrong.



on a lighter note.
IM AN IDIOT!!
=D

my baaaaaaaandd

my band is trying to get on warped tour. you should help us =]


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